OK.... well as you know over the weekend i went out and had WAY too much fun! lol well i was hung over all Sunday and then woke up feeling better on monday, except my throat was so swollen!!! it hurt so bad, i called out of work and the only appointment available that day was at 430pm so i had to call out of my second job as well! :( but it turned out to be a sinus infection... a really bad one! lol i have antibiotics for it... but i have yet to get it to wal mart! lol that's my job during my lunch hour today along with a few other errands... today was the first day i had to put my heater on in my car!!!!!!!!!!! omg its finally really getting cold... I'm sure its been like that in Cali for a while now huh!?!!? i miss home so much... I'm thinking about saving up a few hundred dollars and driving out to Cali... but I'm kinda scared to drive 9 hours ALONE! lol so its not that attractive of an idea..lol sevenn has been taking her anger out on me... i have been working two jobs and am gone 12 hours a day! i get off work at 530 and am in bed by 8 or 9 ... so i don't really even have time to go to the gym because i wanna spend time with sevenn, she doesn't have anyone to play with besides her toys!!! i just bought her a new bed and food/water bowl and three new toys... she was so happy!!! but i feel just terrible, and i always take her with me on the weekends, ANYWHERE I GO!! and to show me how mad she was she decided to poop like 3 TIMES!!! at my friends house! i could have beat her up!!! oh wow... guess what... i bought a pair of pants for $135!!!!!! at buckle.... but i have been feeling so guilty! i think i wanna take them back, i have the tags on them still...and i just think i can find better things to spend my money on... like three pair of Dickie jeans that i love anyway... rather than one pair of really REALLY cute fitted going out on the town or dressed down pants... with pretty embroidered buttoned back pockets and just cute!! :( i just know that my mom is having money problems and i spend $135 on pants!!! that's crap... i feel so selfish! i felt so bad thinking about it last night that i couldn't even sleep for a half hour!! that's it! i think I'm taking them back and sending my mom $100... i know she needs it... my brothers don't have jobs and my moms car is busted just sitting in the garage... the head gasket broke! it costs over 1k!!!! i wanna help my mom... it just hurts me so badly knowing that I'm doing alright for myself out here... and my family back home isn't doing to hot... it hurts a lot! but i know that it wouldn't help if i moved home, it would make it worse, here i have health benefits and an income, i wouldn't if i moved back home..... so here i can help by sending stuff back huh.. :(
.... I love you LyssyBird!!!!!!!
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