Dreams...

Wow oh Wow.. have i had alot of em lately...
i had a dream last night about my dad... when he was healthy and happy.. and laughing :) then he turned into some other guy ..(but was still my dad in the dream) i told my mama that i missed my old dad... and she told me she knows, i started remembering my daddy's smile and the sparkle in his eye when he would look at my mama... and i started to cry in my dream...... i woke up and then noticed i was CRYING!!!!!!

i had another dream that i was at some dry cleaning place... and then all of a sudden at BJs by my old house... i knew my mama had a baby.. so i started running down Demaree as fast as i could go.. it was my birthday (only because Paul was in the front yard threatening me with my bday spankings lol which woulda been punches i know) it was my old house.. a different car was int he drive way, my mama had my old room with a crib in their with a new baby boy.. i walked around behind her to see his face and he looked just like my daddy... not in a weird George Lopez kinda way but he had his eyes and nose... but the eyes are what freaked me... i woke up breathing like i almost got ran over...

it was a trip Alyssa!! and this was all last night.. I've had some other ones but they were the other night and i just cant remember... weird huh... i think i was dreaming about my daddy so much because last night i took my friend Ashley to the ER.. tummy pain.. shes fine now... and there was this little old couple ... the lady was sick and the man was by her side always.. talking to her.. pushing her wheel chair.. covering her with a blanket.. Ashley kept saying awww true love... and at first i was mad... it doesn't seem fair .. why couldn't my mama and daddy have been together through old age? what did she do not to deserve that? but then i started to see how seriously lucky they were... and I'm happy they are.. and my mama has us kids.. i know its not the same.. and we could never love her they way my daddy had... but she'll never have to worry about being taken care of... that's for sure :)

so I'm pretty sure I'm all better... just a few coughs here and there.. i should be 100% by Friday... see you then :) Love you!!

Hi Chris.. xo