No better...

i feel dead... no wait... in order to feel dead you would have to be fully numb... I'm not quit there... still feel the agony and pain.. and honestly i don't care... the bank took over 200 dollars from my bank account because of a stupid credit card company that fucked me... now i cant even pay my utilities... after my rent and school payment... i wont have any money for gas, utilities or food... i have two weeks till my next check and i only have half a tank of gas... how the hell am i going to make it to work everyday and school... i don't think i have ever felt this low... i cant seem to find a second job.. sometimes i wish i was skinny enough to be a stripper... but then again i never could... it would break my daddy's heart... what am i supposed to be learning here... i don't get it...